Nanowrimo Update (#2)

So I kept a log of how I wrote throughout this week, and where I was in NaNoWriMo each day. I think that this week did give me a little trouble, but I got back on track, and am so happy that I'm ahead of the game


Saturday: Wrote right after lunch and it went smoothly.

Sunday: Wrote about 500 words around nine o'clock in the morning. Got into a writing block after dinner. Got it going again, but took a while. Wrote 1,763 words. On to tommorrow!

Monday: Knew that I could only write really well after dinner, so I did. Got off a good, start. Then hit a point where I just wrote anything that came to mind, and it  happened to be a very key part of the novel now. I think I love you nanowrimo. *mauh*

Tuesday: Wrote up a storm after dinner. Kind of dreaded writing in the beginning, but really enjoyed what I wrote.

Wednestday: Woke up at four in the morning, because it was the day after the election, and then wrote like a mad woman until I had to go to school. Got about 1,000 words down. Then after dinner wrote about a 1,000 more words. Really liking the way things are going, but see major plot and character wholes. Need to fill them in, pronto!

Thursday:Flushed with homework and no time. I've got to write after dinner to get today's words in, I hope I type something good in a few hours. Wrote six hundred words after dinner. I don't think I can write anymore. I'm trying to write, and have everything opened for me to just type, but I have nothing I feel passionate about, and ready to write for. Ugh! Turned off the internet and got 400 more words down. I don't think I can write anymore today.

Friday:Got home from school and got a little distracted. Then got down to writing, and got more than enough words down, but not as much as usual. Hoping to get to 20,000 words then go to bed. Wrote another chapter after dinner, and somehow wrote exactly 20,000 words. Woohoo! I like you again, NaNoWriMo.

As you see, Thursday was my bad day. I'm really glad that I started Nanowrimo. Tips that may help you that I've learned so far, is to set time for it. Don't multitask. It's very easy to get distracted when you're on the computer, so I turn off the internet, sometimes. It's a great way to just disconnect from everything, and just write. Do you know when you write best? For me it's right after I eat. I think my brain cells get all excited, and so I'm excited about my story, and then I type like a mad woman. I hope that you are having an amazing NaNoWriMo, too, and leave a comment below telling me how far you are. Good luck to everyone!!

What Do You Want to be When You Grow Up?

There's something every adult, friend, acquaintance asks,"What do you want to be when you grow up?" A lot of them say afterwards that you can be anything you want, that you are young and can change your decision any time you want. Is that really true? because for me, a public school student, in the United States of America, I feel pressured to know what I want to be, now. I'm only thirteen, and I have to choose paths that I want to take for high school, and continue on to college/university.

I don't want to be one thing when I grow up. I'm well assured in myself that I can never stick to one thing. My hobbies and interest are too wide, for me to stick to one thing. As an example, one day I want to sing at Madison Square Garden, when I very well  know I'm neither a good singer, or musician. I am fond of music, and I sing my soul in every broken note, and off key word. Then there are some days when I want to be that writer in a coffee shop and wearing sweats all day. I want to be that lady that has works published, and her imaginary friends got her there. I also want to be a teacher that teaches English abroad one day, in France, or Spain, or in whatever country. Likewise, I want to own my own small business in town, and see the same people I see every weekend. I'd bake cakes, or sell books in my little nook and cranny. A lot of times, I want to be a computer engineer, or website designer. I want to make pictures, and things that will feel good to the human eye. Those are my most often wanted dreams that I want to become real. That's what I want to be when I grow up.

Then why can't I be those things? I'm stuck in this society that expects me to have the same job every weekday for who knows how long. I'm stuck in a society that makes me choose paths, and they still ask me questions like what I want to be when I grow up, when they very well know I can't be anything more than what I've chosen at this moment. I'm stuck in a place where I want to be successful, but I can't because I'd have to start from the beginning, from where people that wanted to be _______, since they were five. I'm stuck, and I'm only 13.

Since the invention of the internet, there's been a whole bunch of job creation on here. I see that the internet is going to become the future of jobs soon. I just hope that it will also allow me what society can't at this moment. I hope I'm aloud to turn on my computer one day and have my guitar or piano out and sing a concert to people live through the internet, and have them commenting back live. I hope that I can teach students through the internet, and grade papers, and help them become their fullest. I know I can write a novel and be published. I know that I can become a website designer. I know that I can be that seller only in my neighborhood, and its through the internet.

I know all the things I want to be. I just don't know how exactly I'll make all of those dreams be reality. If you're with me on this, please leave me a comment. I love receiving comments from you guys, and go ahead and have a battle in the comments below. I have to add this at the end, or else I'm afraid of being pounded with hate, and that's something I wish I didn't have to do, but everything I wrote are my thoughts, and opinions, my views, and mine. Thanks for reading, if you got this far.

Love and Hugs
Clara

If I Didn't Have A Book Blog.

Since, Hurricane Sandy is coming up the eastern sea board and I am on that side of the country (no I won't tell you where I live, stalkers) I've been trying to come up with ideas of what I can do, without the internet. Most of the things I do everyday revolves around the internet. I watch my "television" on there, but I actually just watch youtubers. I read news articles, instead of watching the news. I do research on the internet, instead of going to the library. I'm a book blogger and that got me thinking, that if I didn't start this, what would I be doing?

Well the obvious answer would be I'll still be in school. I'd still have friends, and still have the internet. Though if I didn't have this blog, I wouldn't be as happy as I am most of the time. I wouldn't get random wonderful comments from strangers that make my day, and wouldn't know some amazing people, I'd never would have otherwise. I don't like to jinx things, but I've never got a "bad" comment before, or a "mean" comment. I'm so lucky, and fortunate that I'm not cyberbullied, but I know there are many people out there that have a face on the internet, and are constantly criticized. I know that if I keep continuing this, and it gets bigger, then I'd get those "mean" comments. It's just a fact that not everyone will like you in life. I've learned to except that.

I'm most likely going to go into a lecture now... When you come across someone online, there will be people you won't like and disagree with. I've found some of those people, and right when I know that I won't like them, I move away. I look away. I unfollow them, unsubscribe, exit out, anything that will remove me from someone I dislike. That being said, you can't do that in real life, most of the time. So, be grateful that the internet allows you to do that. If you haven't removed yourself from that situation(or maybe more than on situation), you should immediately.

I think that I'm fairly informed in bullying and cyberbullying. I've seen many things online that are as rude, as stealing your best friend's cat, and leaving it out in the middle of the highway. I, myself, have been bullied for a brief amount of time, and it was nothing serious, but bullying hurts.  My feelings are here for you to read, and I'm vulnerable, so all I ask is that if you dislike me or don't agree with what I say, practice the act of removing yourself from the possibility of you bullying someone.

I never mean to lecture anyone when I write these, but sometimes I have to say these things because they mean so much to me, and I want to share them with y'all. If you didn't know, I love you guys with all of the support you give, and opportunities. It's an ego booster, hahaha. No, but really, I am more confident in myself and not wanting to hide things that I love because of this blog. Thank you for that. If I didn't have a book blog I'll be more susceptible to self-harm, and so much more that I see friends of mine go through, that don't have an outlet like this. Thanks again, and I hope this wasn't cheesy. 

Love and Hugs
Clara

fanfiction

I've been in a reading rut like I told you so much recently, so I've been writing more. I'm not writing fanfiction, if that's what you're thinking. Trust me, I'd tell you first if I was, but this post is about my experience, if you can say that, with fanfiction, and my thoughts on it.

I'm quite a free-spirited person, and I have access to the internet, so I've read things. I've read a lot of fanfiction in my life time. The reason I got into reading really, was reading Twilight at first, and you can hate me on that, but I won't hate you if you are a Harry Potter fan. That's a whole different conversation. So, like I said, I didn't read much, until Twilight got into my eye sight. That's when I got into my fangirl mode, and started obsessing over Twilight. When I was in that geeking out mode, I started reading fanfiction. I think that's the start of when I'd read at night, a lot. I still have to read at night, something, because of those months. I'm not a insomniac or something, but that's what comforts me at night, when I'm trying to sleep. So, of course, I'm for fanfiction. I live off of it sometimes. There's so many fanfiction stories-Twilight, and others- that I adore, and I think should be published.

I know there's another side of fanfiction that some people only see. It's the side that thinks that stories that end should end, and not have these added drama, or plot lines. I can see their side of the argument, but for me I do that so often in my head, that if I see it written down it's a treat. It's kind of like, a friendship that started from something I and someone else like, and then our minds and thoughts, have brought us to a rough idea of what we think should or should've happen. Now, that there are so many series in the young adult genre, it's normal in my opinion to write down our thoughts and what we want to happen.

There are also some people that say that if these writers are good enough to write a wonderful story, why not write their own characters and setting. I think that some people like to write what they know, and what they know best happen to be their favorite books/characters. I find nothing wrong in that. Also I see it as a challenge, because when you write a character more than once for me anyways, I wish I can change how this person will react or think. Another thing is that many fanfiction have turned into published works, and many authors get their word out there through fanfiction, more than anything else.

I know that I told you about my obsession with Twilight in earlier years, and you might think towards the recently popular adult novels, that were inspired by the series, and were fanfiction. I myself, don't read those novels/fanfiction, and I don't intend to. It's just something I personally don't like, and wouldn't like to read. So that's my thoughts on that.

My views on writing is quite free, as long as you're not doing anything illegal, I see no wrong in that. Well, also if you don't personally antagonize someone in your writing, but I think that goes without saying. I hope I didn't step on anyone's feet, and please comment below on your thoughts on fanfiction. Please keep everything PG like I know you will. *looks at you like I know what you're thinking*